Not feel like talking..

You sit silently.. Not feel like talking.. Ur eyes look deep.. So far away.. And so different..
All of the sudden, I feel like a stranger in your life..
Do not know how I was so sure that I will be someone special to you..
When you sat there silently, I felt like want to say something out..
But I did not..
Maybe you want some peaceful space for yourself..
Or maybe I was scared..
They said, it is always silent before a thunderstorm arrives..
I hope not..
I hope the silent in you could just be a simple one..
Not implying anything..

When you are silent, I feel that I do not know you..
What is going on in your mind at this moment??
What is playing in your mind??
What is bothering you..
I do not know..
And not going to know it..
As you silent, I lost all my courage..
I become timid..
I become helpless..
Is that because I love you??
Or is it because I scared I will lost you..

At this moment, I become silent too..
Thoughts playing in my mind..
I cant control it..
I cant stop it..
Feel like want to runaway..
From this silent..
From you..

When you and I were silent..
Our world falls apart..
No longer connected..
And I feel lonely..
I am in my own little world again..
Trapped..

I struggled.. I silently struggled..